paper cut my heart in half...

bitch puhlease

Mon, 21 Feb 2005 06:15:42 GMT

um hi.
long time no write?
in this thing atleast...
anyways i made a new journal.
try your luck and get added.
_betraymykiss
kawesome.

its the most wonderful time of the year...

Wed, 24 Nov 2004 20:49:03 GMT

help me out please!
i would for you guys.
its the holidays. :)
a dollar to a thousand dollars.
i will make you cookies.

my parents decided not to help me anymore.
and i am going for a job today. swear.
but anything will help me out please.
thank you so much!
♥

you're beautiful when you're dead

Fri, 12 Nov 2004 07:52:49 GMT

soo jon thinks i don't wear his band merch he gave me a few months back.
and i had to take pictures for their myspace.
haha so i decided to be ex.tough.ex
and i feel so fifteen years old right now.
hahaha

hahaha i feel so...15...hahaha
wheres my bandana?!
dammit.

i love my best friend andyizzle.
i can't wait to see him again soon.
come over so i can give you a haircut loverrr.
i miss your stinkin guts.
♥

oh. and i'm in the process of making my entire journal friends only.
soo yeah...i don't know if i want to add everyone.
i hate adding people i don't know.
i don't know though.
its really not fair.
i hate friends only journal.
but whateverrrr.

and i'm soo unemployed.
YESSS.
i'm so fuckin rad.

this is what we call a tragedy...

Sun, 26 Sep 2004 01:12:37 GMT

rip tony. :(

today was his funeral.
i wish i wasn't 3000 miles away.
i would give anything to be over there right now.
i am so sorry girls.
i love you all to peices.
and he is in a better place now.
just remember that.
i will always be here for you no matter what.
♥

love always, caffine.

jenn, i love you so much.
and i hope you are being strong throughout this all.
you mean alot to me. and i know he was your best friend.
he was such a wonderful person.
and like you said...he will live on through you.
and you will always have someone keeping you safe
and watching over you at all times.
♥

depressing

Mon, 20 Sep 2004 07:10:15 GMT

rip tony. :(
and i hope everyone else i know in long island is safe.

i remember meeting you the very first day with jenn.
when you picked me up from the airport with her.
and we got ihop. and we drove around and you explained to me what the small bridges were for. (so busses from the city couldnt get in back in the day)
and then we got me saline solution and i left it in your car.
annnd you took me to the mall to see jon. and you and jenn
kept telling me to not be nervous and kept making me laugh.
you were such an amazing kid
and i could tell that the very little time we spent together.
you're going to be greatly missed.
but you are in a better place now.
and i am sorry to everyone in new york.

♥caffine.
(now everytime i hear that i will think of you
and the nickname you gave me.)

i'm sorry jenn and sue and ericka and everyone else. :(

new york new york!

Sun, 12 Sep 2004 06:09:34 GMT

ahhhhhhh aksl;dfjlk;asdjflkasdjflk;asjdfkajsdfklafasd

december 28th...i am going back up to new york!
and staying until the 10th of january.
while i am there josh and i are finding an apartment.
annnd i am finding my job.
and moving there in feb. or march.

but the fact i am going back 3 days after christmas
just made my life so much better.
AHHH. i am so happy.
annnd i get to stay with steve.
more fun times!! <3<3<3

ANNND speaking of new york! happy birthday molly!
i miss yooou. i hope you have a good day. :):):)
ok ok buying my plane ticket nooow.
YESYESYES!
annnd going back during winter time makes me even happier!

:):):)

me and steveee

me and joooosh

steven jenn and megan :):):)

andyyy and jenn :)

:)♥

boys like you are overrated

Fri, 10 Sep 2004 07:20:16 GMT

i am disgusted with myself.

why do i even try with you? seriously.

you're such a fucking dick.

fuck off man. thanks.

and i feel better after saying that.
well a little bit atleast.
♥

oh. and ice scream...
this isn't to you. i promise.

cracking a smile and wearing it all on my sleeve

Wed, 08 Sep 2004 06:11:46 GMT

soo me and skurvy totally kissed today.

then i wanted to make out.

but he couldn't handle me.
proably like you can't handle me either.

then i got bored while i was sitting in back at work.
and took these.

i LOVE that picture of me. hmm

i was bored. sue me playa.

unlike cute beth...side puckered lips don't work for me. :(

i wear cute shoes to work. don't hate.

that is all.
i am hungry but i just ate carrots.
blahhh.
and my job is boring. :/

he's a maverick he's so smooth
if things go according to plan
i'll have him finished by five a.m.
there's no changing plans
there's no second chance
i've already got both feet through the door
and i can taste the air
make a sound it's safe for you
to choke in here alone
whatever i say goes
you're not here with me

i know i'm stronger now

Tue, 07 Sep 2004 18:36:40 GMT

apparently i'm straightedge?

How straight edge are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
YES!
but they are wrong.
i don't drink soda.
i havn't for a good while.
it makes me sick and my throat burn.

and i even said on there i drink once or twice.
hmm. then michelle took it and she got 0% straightedge
and it told her she was an alcoholic. HAHA
wooo

i work today.
i work for the rest of the week.
this sucks.

i slept a good long time last night.
i came home and napped.
i napped all day. woke up and ate. hahaha
went back to sleep.
woke up and talked online.
was up for 2 hours then passed out until 9:30 this morning.
i didn't even hear my mom come in to say she was leaving.
weirddd.

the new used cd "in love and death"
is really good i think.
it comes out later this month.
people should buy it.
and i'm going to get the shirt that says
"burt is my homeboy"
and wear it to their next show.
haha remember michelle almost exactly one year ago
we were at the used show.
and i met adams friends beth and kaylan for the first time.
i love those girls.
and then we traveled over to arizona so we could see them the next day too.
and we almost got in a fight with stupid 15 year old taking back sunday fans
and you held my fist back.
but we elbowed people during brand nizzle.
because they like to mosh to emo songs!
do you dash to moshboard?! hahaha aww memories.
and i almost got in a fight with 3 girls in front of us during the vegas used show.
gosh those girls were annoying.
i'm sure they liked me bothering them though.
bitches. haha
if you can't handle shit don't be annoying and stand next to me.
i throwdown playas.
HAHA aww that was fun.

buuut now i must go get ready for work.

i admit i'm just a fool for you

Tue, 07 Sep 2004 04:03:56 GMT

can you feel your heartbeat racing?
can you taste the fear in her sweat?
you've done this wrong
it's too far gone
these sheets tell of regret
i admit that i'm just a fool for you
i am just a fool for you

here is where we both feel wrong
tonight's your last chance to
do exactly what you want to
and this could be my night
this is what makes me feel alive
makes you feel alive
here is where we both go wrong
so tie me up and toss this key
cause for now we're living in this moment
and we both ignore the truth
it's all over, it's all over

i feel your heart against mine
so take a breath and close your eyes

your lungs have failed and they both stopped breathing
my heart is dead and its way past beating
something has gone terribly wrong
i'm scared, you're scared, we're scared of this
i never thought we'd make it out alive
i never told you but its all in your goodbyes
it's all in your goodbyes

well look who's dying now
slit wristless sleeping with the girl next door
i always knew you were such a sucker for that
it doesnt matter what you say
you never mattered anyway, never mattered anyway

in this moment that we both ignore the truth
it's all over, it's all over
i feel your heart against mine
so take a breath and close your eyes

exactly.

and i just realized how much of a bitch i am.
i am sorry. blah.

so tell me how's the rest
i'm fine with second best
it's all that i can say
not coming back this way...

GOSH! vote for pedro!

Mon, 06 Sep 2004 03:13:12 GMT

he is my new obsession.

Aaron Ruell.
napoleon dynamites brother.
ok i seriously didn't look twice at him the first time i saw the movie.
now seeing what he REALLY looks like.
i want to marry the boy.

HAHA.

YESSS!

haha. why am i so obsessed with this movie still?!

now i am just waiting for adam to pick me up.
then we are off over to michelles aunts.
come hang out tonight.
call my cell if you wanna!
♥

these sheets tell of regret

Sun, 05 Sep 2004 19:55:38 GMT

tonight i am going out with brian.
the really hot boy from urban outfitters.
hes back from chicago finally and he asked me to go out
and watch napoleon dynamite with him.
we both love that movie.
hes so cute. he asked me last night and hes like
"tomorrow you have a date with me and napoleon"
haha

thennn i am going all the way across town to a party.
and i am spending the night.
i'm going to make out. indeed i am.
and i am going to drink red bull and vodkas and cute little margaritas.

i'm so bored right now.
aj, mister 1919, called me last night.
he moved into his new apartment.
soo i think i am going to make a trip to ohio soon.
to see him and his new place.
well maybe. if he meant what he said last night.
because i think he was drunk. no matter what he said.
haha

i just wanted to save this.

edgexforxlifex: hes just an ass chas. don't pay attention to him. when i even saw him when he was here the first thing i thought is he is not even your type. hes not hardcore tuff enough.
xlashing out: HAHA hardcore tough? extoughex
edgexforxlifex: look at him.
xlashing out: i did look at him. he was cute.
edgexforxlifex: compare your ex's to him.
xlashing out: haha ok
edgexforxlifex: he didn't even have black hair.
xlashing out: what does black hair have to do with anything?
edgexforxlifex: and he didn't have that many tattoos.
xlashing out: HAHA now you are just sounding like my mom.
xlashing out: so basically he should look like you?
edgexforxlifex: yea he really should
xlashing out: sleeves of tattoos, huge gauges, black shag, etc
edgexforxlifex: i should teach him a few things if he really did want you
xlashing out: well he doesn't want me so you don't have to teach anybody anything
edgexforxlifex: no i think he does want you. hes just stupid. really he is. its his look that is making him stupid.
xlashing out: haha you;re so mean
edgexforxlifex: i'm serious here chas
edgexforxlifex: hes stupid if hes going to show his face here again. he saw what your friends were like. they do some hardcore beatings.
xlashing out: yeah but they won't do anything to him. and even if anything did happen it would get broken up right there. nothing would happen
edgexforxlifex: how about my band beats the shit out of his band then?
xlashing out: haha now you sound like jon.
xlashing out: his band hates *****s band.
edgexforxlifex: we could take him. and it would be a fair fight. 5 band guys against 5 band guys.
xlashing out: haha but you guys are extoughex it wouldn't be a fair fight. they wouldn't have a chance.
edgexforxlifex: chastine. was he fair to you?
xlashing out: ok ok. whatever.
edgexforxlifex: and we can do it on stage. in front of everyone.
xlashing out: so what? when they are singing you just run up and tackle him HAHA
edgexforxlifex: that would be fucking great
xlashing out: i don't know what i would do.
xlashing out: why are we plotting fights?! do we really have nothing better to do?
edgexforxlifex: you break my girls heart i'll break your face. i'm just looking out for you.

i love this kid.

and i'm the biggest flirt

Fri, 03 Sep 2004 20:36:32 GMT

i love it when my wife ashlee simpson wears my clothes in public.

JOSHRABI:
JOSHRABI: ashlee simpson
xlashing out: a;slkdjfkasdf MY hoodie
JOSHRABI: wearing ur hoodie
xlashing out: YES!
xlashing out: my gosh i love my wife
JOSHRABI: hahah
JOSHRABI: hahah
xlashing out: i love her
xlashing out: really i do
JOSHRABI: as do i
JOSHRABI: arent you happy i sent you that
JOSHRABI: and thought of you
xlashing out: YES

ok that is all. haha :)

me and ashlee are so in love. <3

i'm going on a tripppp :)

Thu, 02 Sep 2004 02:44:01 GMT

lkdasjflaksdjfklasdfjlkasdf
i'm going up to san fran, california
october 14th through the 17th to visit friends.
mostly matt...cock. haha
buuut hawthorne heights is playing a show there on the 15th at slims.
soo um if any of you live around there
please come and say hi to me!
i'll be there!
but i just bought my plane ticket
so it made me excited.
after begging my mom for an hour haha.
annnd i think i might be going to jersey in november.
shes still warming up to that 5 hour flight.
and it will be after the election.
i just gotta talk to my jersey lover arielle about it.
but thinking about the east coast makes me so excited
and i can't wait.
hopefully she still wants me to come
and enjoy dorm life with her.

annnd that is all.
now i am off to go enjoy my cream of broccoli soup.
yum! :)

mom: you can go up and visit matt if you promise to not come home with any more holes in your body or any tattoos
me: mom i hardly even have holes in my body.
mom: i know but when you go out with matt you always come home with something new
me: that was once and we have hung out more than once
mom: well just don't come home with anymore of those scary surface piercings you have
me: haha alright mom whatever

my broken heart is so in need

Wed, 01 Sep 2004 08:06:47 GMT

so let me just say that i HATE drinking and
not getting drunk. or buzzed.
i use to be a lush.
now i can't even get a little bit buzzed with alcohol.
i had 2 red bulls and vodkas tonight.
(can i just say i love paul frank for free drinks and i didn't even have to use my id!
yay paul frank. thank you!)
a year ago i would have been completely buzzed.
my friends were drunk. was i? no.
i am 5'8 and between 125 - 130 pounds.
back in feburary...6 months after i stopped drinking.
i had 9 shots at my friends apartment.
i did not get buzzed.
i should have been DEAD.
no seriously. 6 months prior to that i would have been in my undies
shakin my ass or passed out somewhere.
and then to not even get buzzed.
what the hell is wrong with my body and not responding to alcohol.
i give up on alcohol.
that is the end of that.
and to all my straight edge friends.
i am sorry. :/

but the paul frank fashion show was fab.
thank you adam for getting me on the list.
i love you to death.
even if i still think you are mad or upset or something with me.
i bought a really hot dress.
i wanted it in huntington but they only had a large.
and well i just can't do larges unless i want it to fall off of me.
look and be jealous.

kaylan me and meeshell are all in love.

johnee is so wonderful.

i decided i am going to get married in that dress.
it is just my favorite peice of clothing ever now.
so short. so sexy. so white/innocent. so chastine.
and it has hearts all over it.
and a cute pink ribbon.
i am in love with it.
i am in complete love with paul frank.
who is such a wonderful person.
and i love his weiner attire.
yes. indeed i do.

now you should really fall in love with me.
yes. you.
i miss you.
blah.

and with that being said...
i am leaving before i start crying.
goodnight.
♥

in my head everything was perfect

Wed, 01 Sep 2004 00:55:06 GMT

this is the sweetest thing
i have heard in quite a while.

QTPiGiggles628: i was just thinking..
QTPiGiggles628: if I could look like anyone...actually BE anyone.
QTPiGiggles628: I'd be you.
QTPiGiggles628: I think you're the greatest, and most prettiest girl there is.

i have a paul frank fashion show to go to tonight. :)
i'm excited i get to see adam. :)
and also excited for paul frank. haha :)

but i don't know what to wear.

maybe one of my jean minis.
and my white shirt?
and then my teal one underneath since its kinda see through?
with my velcro teal shoes?
OH and my cute white heart belt i never wear anymore.
i don't know. ahh
i wanna look cute.

i like my hair today though.

that is all.
i must go get ready now.
and i am hungry.
but my mom has nothing to eat.
she buys all this stuff with meat and chicken in it.
and i am like gross. she knows i don't eat meat.
shes so unfair.
i am starving and shes like "We have food"
and i am like "yeah food i don't eat" and shes like "well maybe you should eat meat"
and i am like "maybe i will starve to death instead"
and we get in some big fight.
grr to that!
i am so hungry.
somebody please feed me.
all i have ate today has been baby carrots and crackers.
i feel like i have an eating disorder again.
haha

i'm an idiot

Mon, 30 Aug 2004 17:41:21 GMT

its only you beautiful
or i don't want anyone
if i can choose
its only you...

i miss you.
you know who you are.
call me.
♥

bummer

Sun, 29 Aug 2004 16:00:19 GMT

my favorite 10 dollar sunglasses just broke.
like 5 minutes go. :(
the ones i always have on in pictures.

so i go to my mom all pouty and i am like my sunglasses just broke.
she has the matching ones...just chanel.
she hands them to me and shes like "here...just put these one in cases"
and i am like YES!
i got a twin pair of my sunglasses that are chanel!

wee. that rocks about my mom.

oh and we might be moving across town. :(

now i have to go to an hour meeting at work.
getting paid 11 dollars for it though rocks.
and i can go all blah looking. YES!
then i am going out with a extoughex girl.
you know it.

btw i am obsessed with the song "polaris" on the new jimmy eat world cd.
buy it october 19th.
it is AMAZING.
i lalalove it to death. and i cannot get enough of it.
♥

call if you wanna see me today!!

arrr mateys!

Sat, 28 Aug 2004 08:01:09 GMT

fuck livejournal for not posting this huge entry i just wrote!
fuck you fuck you fuck you!
wow. that made me upset.

ok tonight i went to coles pirate party.
i saw so many kids i love and miss so much
that i hadn't seen in forever.
we all need to hang out pronto btw!
prepirate party i hung out with andy and joe. :)

i love my friends.
espeically andyfuckinizzle.♥

me and joe going to pick up andy♥

vegas heat kills kids.

i love to love levi horsethelevi. haha

i love this boy for real

you are jealous hes not your best friend till death!

told you we're in best friend love

yes. we still eat faces. watch out

EAT YO FACE PLAYA!

you wish your best friend stole you cute heart earrings from the mall

a touch over-emo...

us getting our pirate gear together for real!

best friend pirate love

i'm so fuckin pirate these days!

i miss erick.

we went to ericks prepirate party.
i havn't seen that kid since warped tour
when i saw him every 5 minutes. haha
aww it was good seeing so many people tonight.
i'm glad erick took good care of andy when he ranaway for a month.
♥thanks for that erick!

then i came home...
to a rather disappointing im.
buttt i am not letting it get to me.
i am better then this.
i have so many amazing friends who love and care about me so much.
why get emo over this?
thats just gay. seriously.
so whatever happens...happens i guess i will say.
i just have to say i love all my friends.

and i am glad aj, mister 1919, called me tonight.
i really miss our 2 hour long phone coverstations.
we havn't had one since june.
we hardly talk anymore and i think thats bugging me as well.
i miss the fuck out of that kids voice.
and hes adorable.
i wish i got more of him like i use to a few months ago.
i let things get to me too easily.
oh well. but i miss you mister 1919.
call me more often.
i really wanna come see you sometime soon.

annnd that is all.
i don't know whatelse to write.
i'm going to try to stop being emo now.
.extoughex. for real!

ps. the highlight of my night...
wearing a toddlers pirate vest/jacket thingy.
it fit.
then i tired to fit it over my boobs.
like pin together. and it busted.
i don't have huge boobs.
heck i hardly have boobs!
so i just started laughing hard in joes car.
it fit my tummy. just not my boobies. :(
fuck boobs. it was neat too!
i was so pirate. i wish i took a picture of me in it.
but i didn't take any pictures at the party. :(
just note that is was awesomely amazing.
quite like myself.
♥

it hurts too much

Fri, 27 Aug 2004 23:01:52 GMT

its nice to know i never meant a thing to you.

you will be the death of me...

why am i getting so depressed?
what the hell is wrong with me?
i think michelle is right.
i do need pills.
i hate that. i really do.
i'll be fine. i know i will.
i always pull through.
i am a tough girl. a strong girl.
i have to make it through this.
i will be fine. i always am.
he means nothing to me.
just wait...

outside, i can see your breath,
but you're not there, and mine is hardly left
twilight, feels the morning press
and every star is seamed with your duress
inside, i can hear each step,
but they're not yours, a sleepless dream at best
black skies, flow to auburn reds,
to wake the night and of me what is left.
if i don't want to see you, it's because it hurts to much
all this time spent wondering if i was just a crutch.
if i don't want to see you, it's cause it hurts too much
was i just a crutch?

blah. i'm sorry kids.

you promised you promised...

Fri, 27 Aug 2004 06:14:53 GMT

so...

skurvy and i are in love.
like major love.

annnd...
i love jenn mayhem brandnewtheory as well.
very much so.
and today was her birthday.
so i want to wish her the best birthday ever!
my favorite long islander. i miss you so much.
i hope your day was amazing.
come visit me soon punk!

when i was in new york...april.

when she visited me in feburary.
i miss that darn girl so much.
anyways happy birthday love.
"where did all the cowboys go?"
and i will be seeing you soon.
♥

and i am quite pleased when AJ, mister 1919, leaves me wonderful comments to come home to
from work.
such as:
ajwi9: who is this you that you speak of

Auto response from xlashing out: stay with me
you're the one i need
you make the hardest things...seem easy
keep my heart somewhere drugs don't go
don't let go
dig a great big hole
down an endless hole
we'll both go
you're so blind
you cant see me this time
hope comes from inside
and i feel so low tonight...</3 the new jew is amazing. the whole cd reminds me of you. go figure... at work. come visit. ajwi9: and why aren't you here right me right now ajwi9: so i can do you in the butt don't you wish you had someone as wonderful as him in your life. i know. you all are so jealous. its ok though. you will find a mister 1919 for you...just not as amazing as mine. :) &hearts;

weee

Thu, 26 Aug 2004 17:43:28 GMT

so i have the new jimmy eat world cd "futures" that comes out in october.
how jealous are all of you?
i'm so glad i have friends everywhere. :)
and i get 95percent of everything advanced. :) :) :)

its amazing. you kids better buy it.
♥

JOSHRABI: are u listeing to jew?
xlashing out: YESaslkejfaksdf amazing!
JOSHRABI: isnt it good?lkafdjhg
xlashing out: YES!
xlashing out: its like their old stuff
xlashing out: not the crappy bleed america stuff
JOSHRABI: hahaha

buy it buy it buy it!
if you know whats good for you...
♥

you will be the death of me...

Wed, 25 Aug 2004 19:06:28 GMT

first off...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARAH DARLING! mzelectricocean <3
i hope you have a wonderful day. muah!
♥

second off...

say byebye to the lovexcore room. all my colorful hearts...
i am so fucking cool with my skurvy bed.

you wish you mom let you use her credit card to buy yourself paul frank room goodies.
pssh! yes!
and i even have matching skurvy ballet slippers.
wow i can just sense your jealousy now. :)

and now here are picture from california.

wish you were there...

oh and can i please just say how in love i am with club bang!
i shook my ass to muse, the stills, the sounds, radiohead, franz, the rapture, the postal service, and soo much more. i think there was only one song they played i didn't know.
and they had so many cute kids there.
i was in heaven.
i was just missing ONE person to be complete. but he was nowhere close.
and he got mad i was there. :(
and i didn't have phone service in there.
but i was dying for him to be there with me. :/
it is my favorite place ever.
i wish troy xtroybotx and remington postmodernrobot could have been there with me as well.
us 3 would have had so much fun shaking out little asses like we did at coachella.
i miss you boys!

ok now for california...

the carride there...waking up at 5am is NOT fun at all.
but jumping on beds is!

driving away...leaving it all behind...

yumm! we are in love i hear... :)

i'm so gangsta you wanna cry! i was bored on the drive there.
leave me alone haha

while michelle got ready in the hotel
i took pictures
because i always do. duh.
what do you expect?

a smile...

she loves me. i told you so...

i hate mirror shots.
but i LOVE this picture of me. :)

then we met up with kaylan and adam who were at a tattoo shop...
while kaylan got stuff added on to her tattoo
we were bored and played on the couch...

adam likes to bite my arm...so does michelle.
my arm must be tasty...

adam likes to kiss my eye? haha EW. GROSS. why would i kiss adam?

michelle wanted to make out...

adam just wanted a blowjob... hahaha

now for the beach!!

why am i so tall?

they became in love too...

kaylans a hot peice of ass...yes i know. back up.

me and adam were emo on the beach...

we love our jamba juice! all of us kids do! yum.

we're all in love.

girls feet. whos who kids?

i'd tap that ass. :) haha

now we went to the club afterwards...

but heres pictures from the next day...

i'm hot on the beach.

adam goes crazy on the beach...bitch.

there were 3...yes count them...3.

i love sand between my toes...

the like to cuddle with each others feet after a long day in newport.

now for monday pictures. before we left.

adam and i bring the mosh to huntington! like whoa!

a wave tackled me.
so i took my skirt off...
i was so completly awesome...

michelle loves to love me.

they're in love.

get off the phone and into the ocean!

then since i was soaking wet and in my undies...we went to the car
and i got to put on pants. yay.
and adam and i got changed in front of a police station.
we're rad.
then we left like 3 or 4 hours later. :(

i miss california.
and yes...i still do not belive in lj-cuts. deal lovers.

you always amazed but thats the past

Sat, 21 Aug 2004 00:54:45 GMT

i found collin and mines hoodie!
i love this hoodie. seriously. so much.
i have not seen it since i came home from new york. and it was in my travel bag all along.
fuck that. this shits coming with me to california.
i don't care how fuckin trendy it is now.
me and collin will beat everyones ass because we are the only cool kids allowed to wear it.

this is about brokenhearts
this is about me...
that line is so true.

at this time in 12 hours i will be on my way to california.
adam meaningful_lies, michelle michellewntknow, and myself are going to have a blast.
you're so jealous.

if anyone wants to come to our myspace hotel party tomorrow night.
call my cell and let me know.
i miss my cali kids!

i'm in a grouchy mood.
things never go my way and i am getting blah.
my life just is not fair at all.
what to do what to do?
i want to call aj.
i miss talking to mister 1919 so much.
if you read this...call me this weekend. please. :)

i'm really looking forward to this cali trip...

couples will rest
i'll be sleepless
so cry yourself to sleep
this is about brokenhearts
this is about me...

i just can't help it anymore.
i don't know how much longer i can hold these tears in.
its getting old.
and i am just going to leave now.
and scream me some underoath...

i hope adam brought some cool jeans to california.
i have a feeling we are going to be sharing our pants. hahahaha

edit.
edgexforxlifex: while you are having a grand ol' time in the pacific ocean i'll be singing copeland's song "california" on your voicemail everyday awaiting your arrival back to vegas. i'll make the whole band sing it. "come back from california all of us here in vegas are starved for your attention."
xlashing out: haha aww but i can't see you singing sa dsappy songs.
edgexforxlifex: i would only for you<3

that was sweet. but that song reminds me of someone.
i want to say this to that someone...
maybe i fell too fast.
maybe i pushed you away.
now you're gone and i'm afraid you're never coming back this way again.
i won't mind if you monopolize all of my time.
i won't say a thing at all.
i won't say a word.
gosh i wish i made that mix for that someone. ahh. :(

california, here we come.

just randomly wondering

Fri, 20 Aug 2004 17:59:01 GMT

so um quick question...

if i got married...

what would you kids do or say or how would you react? what?
haha
would you come?! hahahaha
♥

this is really random huh? haha

my parents got married when they were 20 years old.
and i am 20. so i am just wondering. haha